I thought I should post a quick update. Today is Mother's Day and Jason got me a card and bought me doughnuts at Kribels. We also took the dog to South Park and are getting ready to go to dinner with mom and Glenn.
Baby-wise... nothing much is new. Time is crawling. I have my next OB appointment tomorrow but I don't expect any big news.
On the other front... the MS front... well, it's frustrating. Pregnancy is supposed to keep things from happening but that's not the case with me. I'm worried that after I have the baby that I'll have tons of problems if I'm already having them now.
I try not to think about it much and try not to talk to anyone (but Jason and he's sick of hearing it) about it. I know mom gets some more details than others, too. I'm so scared that when I lose sleep with the new arrival that all hell is going to break loose.
But, really, it's just frustrating and gets me down. One day can be great and then the next I get tremors in my hand or my ears start buzzing so loudly that I can't hear well beyond that buzzing. I'll keep from listing all the stupid little things that keep happening.
I'm trying not to shut people off or shut down but sometimes I just want to disappear for a while and bury myself in a hole. I hope that after the baby is born that I'll be so preoccupied with that that I don't obsess over this stuff.
I have a specialist appointment on July 7th and got a script for an MRI that I'll do before then. I'm scared of what we'll find out at that appointment. But, maybe if we get answers we can get somewhere with this. I was told this specialist isn't very quick to hand out a diagnosis (which is the opposite of the first guy I started to see). That's probably not a bad thing, though... this is a big deal.
So, after my July specialist appt., I don't know if I'll be any the wiser on things. I guess we'll have to wait and see.
Sorry I wrote more than I intended and sorry to be a downer. I guess we all have those days, though. Hopefully going out to dinner will distract me and lift me up a little...
2 comments:
Sometimes you just have to let it out, and that's ok. It's alright to be worried, it's natural. Just know that you have terrific friends and family that will help you through everything. :)
I can't wait to meet the baby!
I think this blog is good for you. Writing helps you(Cathy)(not a plural you). Don't forget, after the baby is born the Doc will be able to help you with medications that you are not able to take right now. As for getting enough sleep, Jason and the rest of us will pitch in. No matter what, you and Jay will be great parents. I see you with the nieces and nephew.
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