Down Day

Well, I'm having a down day today.

I didn't sleep well and I'm tired. But, the worser part is what's going on with my body. This one isn't pregnancy related. I don't know if I mentioned it here already, but for the past several weeks the right side of my face has had 10 second episodes of going numb. It's still doing it and it's now doing it to my tongue and down my right arm. It's even affecting my left hand. I'm almost having trouble focusing my eyes when it happens. It pretty much seizes me up. This is so frustrating and scary.

It just started last time I saw the neurologist. I did tell him about it. He said it couldn't be MS since MS symptoms come and stay or they completely leave after a time. They don't just come and go like this. At the time he said it may be stress. Well, after waiting a few weeks, I can say that I don't think it's stress.

It's scaring me. I don't even know if MS is the right diagnosis since I never got my MRI. I did call the doctor and left a message today about this. I fear for what he may want to do, or worse yet, what really is wrong with me.

I'm sick of being scared and feeling like this. This should be the best time of my life and all I do is deal with this crap. It's hard to stay positive when your face goes numb and stops you in your tracks countless times a day. It's worse today and I wonder if it's because I didn't sleep.

Sorry to dump this but I'm at work alone trying to make it to 5:00. Everyone else left early so I'm holding down the fort. I seriously doubt the doctor will even call me back today and tomorrow's a holiday.

I just had to get it out somewhere...

I pray nothing else (or worse) is wrong with me. I'm sure the hormones aren't helping, either.