I really have no reason to post today. I have nothing new going on. I have O/T tomorrow and my next ultrasound on Monday. The wait is killing me! I haven't spotted in days but I still have no pregnancy symptoms now. I'm trying not to worry so I'm just playing a large (3 day) waiting game.
Pray that my little one is healthy and growing! I know I am.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Panic
Well... I'm in full panic mode. I've been spotting off and on for a week now. The doctor isn't concerned and doesn't want to see me. They said if I was miscarrying, they couldn't do anything, anyway. Spotting can be normal.
The most alarming thing is that I have NO symptoms anymore.
Not that I want to be sick, but at least I'd know that I was okay. I went from 11 last night to 10am this morning without eating. Normally that'd be a death sentence, but nope... I have no problems.
I don't know what to do. The doctor won't see me and I don't have an appointment for a week.
Gooogle is my worst enemy. I read up on Missed Miscarriages and I'm trying not to lose it.
Sorry I had to share...
UPDATE (A COUPLE HOURS LATER)...
well, my stomach hurts again (after I ate breakfast)... let's hope it's a good sign.
The most alarming thing is that I have NO symptoms anymore.
Not that I want to be sick, but at least I'd know that I was okay. I went from 11 last night to 10am this morning without eating. Normally that'd be a death sentence, but nope... I have no problems.
I don't know what to do. The doctor won't see me and I don't have an appointment for a week.
Gooogle is my worst enemy. I read up on Missed Miscarriages and I'm trying not to lose it.
Sorry I had to share...
UPDATE (A COUPLE HOURS LATER)...
well, my stomach hurts again (after I ate breakfast)... let's hope it's a good sign.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Off and On
Well yesterday was good morning sickness wise. It felt good to feel almost normal. Since I felt better yesterday, I am paying for it again today! Jason made me an english muffin for breakfast. Too bad it didn't taste too good! But, it's not his fault. So, I'm sitting on the couch grumbling waiting for this to pass.
I had O/T yesterday and it went well. I learned new exercises and re-tested on one of the eval tests. I did improve so I'm happy. I shaved 6 seconds off my time.
Mom came over to visit after that and then Jason and I went to the History Center for the opening of a display he was involved in with work. The place was packed. I don't know how people know about these things.
I think we're going car looking today, once my green face turns human again.
I had O/T yesterday and it went well. I learned new exercises and re-tested on one of the eval tests. I did improve so I'm happy. I shaved 6 seconds off my time.
Mom came over to visit after that and then Jason and I went to the History Center for the opening of a display he was involved in with work. The place was packed. I don't know how people know about these things.
I think we're going car looking today, once my green face turns human again.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
This Morning
Well... I don't know if this can be considered good news or not, but I feel like total crap this morning. I'm at work trying to keep my stomach from exploding. Even my beloved Tums did nothing. I'm supposed to be eating cereal right now but I just can't bring myself to do it.
I can't believe that this lasts for 12 weeks. Ugh. 6 more weeks to go.
EDIT to explain since mom seemed confused: If you feel sick, the baby is probably good and still growing. It's probably good news that I feel ill. I hope that makes sense. I know it sounds odd.
I can't believe that this lasts for 12 weeks. Ugh. 6 more weeks to go.
EDIT to explain since mom seemed confused: If you feel sick, the baby is probably good and still growing. It's probably good news that I feel ill. I hope that makes sense. I know it sounds odd.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Spinal Tap Results - Not Good
Don't be offended if I didn't personally tell you this. I didn't tell anyone. The doctor called me with my spinal tap results. Well, it appears I do have MS. I don't even need an MRI now... he said this is how they used to diagnose.
I can't talk to anyone right now because I can't control my crying.
How can such a wonderful part of my life (having the baby) be so tainted with this news? I just want that dark cloud to lift away from me.
At least this diagnosis won't affect the pregnancy. I'm supposed to start a round to steroids soon to help aleviate my symptoms. The gyno said it's safe to do.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm tired and emotionally drained. I've had moments of numbness followed by anger and sorrow today. I guess I have to take it day by day.
Sorry I had to deliver this news...
On top of that,the Nissan is still dead so I didn't make it to work. I guess that's not the worst thing considering today's news.
I can't talk to anyone right now because I can't control my crying.
How can such a wonderful part of my life (having the baby) be so tainted with this news? I just want that dark cloud to lift away from me.
At least this diagnosis won't affect the pregnancy. I'm supposed to start a round to steroids soon to help aleviate my symptoms. The gyno said it's safe to do.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm tired and emotionally drained. I've had moments of numbness followed by anger and sorrow today. I guess I have to take it day by day.
Sorry I had to deliver this news...
On top of that,the Nissan is still dead so I didn't make it to work. I guess that's not the worst thing considering today's news.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Monday, October 20, 2008
Busy Day
Here's the boring stuff first. I'll keep it short. I had O/T this morning and it went well. Since I got sick last time (and remained composed this time), we went over my 'home program'. It's so frustrating when you can't do simple tasks (like flip coins) with one hand. Oh well, I guess that's the point of therapy. I hope it works.
And... let's skip ahead to the second boring thing... the Nissan died this afternoon. Jason just got back after buying a battery charger. We hope that's the problem. It's time to trade in the Nissan.
Now here's the fun stuff... I got my fist (6 week ) ultrasound today. We didn't see much. But, everything's where it should be. And... we have a heartbeat! I teared up when we saw it. It was so cool to see a little pulsating light on the screen and know that's a tiny heart beating inside me. It's kind of freaky, too and puts this all in reality.
They said the heart was going sort of slow, but, it's so early that they're surprised to see one at all. I'm supposed to go again in 2 weeks and that should be more telling. The heart should be beating faster next time. I think it was going around 106 bpm and next time it should be closer to 160 (I think).
Well, after two appointments and a dead car, I'm beat. I will try to post an ultrasound picture soon. My scanner is in the attic so it isn't easily accessable.
For now, I need dinner and it's 7:30. I'm hungry!
And... let's skip ahead to the second boring thing... the Nissan died this afternoon. Jason just got back after buying a battery charger. We hope that's the problem. It's time to trade in the Nissan.
Now here's the fun stuff... I got my fist (6 week ) ultrasound today. We didn't see much. But, everything's where it should be. And... we have a heartbeat! I teared up when we saw it. It was so cool to see a little pulsating light on the screen and know that's a tiny heart beating inside me. It's kind of freaky, too and puts this all in reality.
They said the heart was going sort of slow, but, it's so early that they're surprised to see one at all. I'm supposed to go again in 2 weeks and that should be more telling. The heart should be beating faster next time. I think it was going around 106 bpm and next time it should be closer to 160 (I think).
Well, after two appointments and a dead car, I'm beat. I will try to post an ultrasound picture soon. My scanner is in the attic so it isn't easily accessable.
For now, I need dinner and it's 7:30. I'm hungry!
Friday, October 17, 2008
One More Neuro Test
I am back from the third of recent tests, an ultrasound on my neck. It only took 5 minutes so it wasn't that bad. I was hoping that I didn't feel ill though it but I was fine.
Mom also came over and cleaned my bathroom (thank you). I'm scared to touch and inhale Comet. It can't be good for you! I guess I should find natural cleaners now.
The dog had us up all night last night. Poor Jason is exhausted. Cyan whined and cried every hour on the hour. I think she was bored. Jason delt with her while I munched on crackers and popped tums. I felt like I could feel off all day but I kept that feeling at bay. So now I'm a little tired but I'll survive.
I'm scared for Monday's ultrasound. Did I mention that? I'm afraid they'll find nothing! We only have a couple more days to wait. The'll feel like an eternity. For now, I'm glad it's Friday.
Mom also came over and cleaned my bathroom (thank you). I'm scared to touch and inhale Comet. It can't be good for you! I guess I should find natural cleaners now.
The dog had us up all night last night. Poor Jason is exhausted. Cyan whined and cried every hour on the hour. I think she was bored. Jason delt with her while I munched on crackers and popped tums. I felt like I could feel off all day but I kept that feeling at bay. So now I'm a little tired but I'll survive.
I'm scared for Monday's ultrasound. Did I mention that? I'm afraid they'll find nothing! We only have a couple more days to wait. The'll feel like an eternity. For now, I'm glad it's Friday.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Tum, Tum, Tum, Tum....
The clinic told me that I can take Tums and B12 to help with feeling sickey. So, we went to Giant Eagle last night on an emergency trip for Tums, B12, and frozen dinners (I don't cook much anymore, sorry)!
Well, I took the B12 last night and popped a couple Tums at 8am this morning... so far so good. It may be because I have the morning off. I'm not sure.
But, now that I don't feel sick this morning, I'm starting to worry! I just can't win.
I have an ultrasound on Monday and I can't wait. I hope they give us good news.
Well, I took the B12 last night and popped a couple Tums at 8am this morning... so far so good. It may be because I have the morning off. I'm not sure.
But, now that I don't feel sick this morning, I'm starting to worry! I just can't win.
I have an ultrasound on Monday and I can't wait. I hope they give us good news.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Heave Ho, Here We Go
First, thanks for all the comments on my original posts. Everyone is so wonderful.
The morning sickness apparently wasn’t a fluke. Today, I had to leave work at 10am because I thought I was going to die. My office is so awesome that I could work from home today.
I had to pull over twice on my way home and try not to puke. I finally made it home and couldn’t wait any longer. I felt much better after! I think my ‘morning sickness’ is just that I’d be happy if it’s just a once a morning thing! Isn’t that sad?
Now I just need to get an appetite and want to eat something real. I’ve been living off cheese puffs for two days.
The morning sickness apparently wasn’t a fluke. Today, I had to leave work at 10am because I thought I was going to die. My office is so awesome that I could work from home today.
I had to pull over twice on my way home and try not to puke. I finally made it home and couldn’t wait any longer. I felt much better after! I think my ‘morning sickness’ is just that I’d be happy if it’s just a once a morning thing! Isn’t that sad?
Now I just need to get an appetite and want to eat something real. I’ve been living off cheese puffs for two days.
Monday, October 13, 2008
O/T Today
I just got back from my first occupational therapy session. I can't say I remember any of it. I felt ill and thought I was going to faint.
Long story short, the woman grabbed me a puke bucket and I obliged. I haven't throw up since 7th grade... until today.
I was so embarassed. The therapist sees it all the time and doesn't mind at all. It's still embarassing. She got me ginger ale and a 'preggo pop' to suck on. She said I'm in the prime time for morning sickness.
I called mom after the event and she drove me home. The car is still at St. Clair Hospital. I have to pick it up later. Thanks for the ride, mom. :)
Long story short, the woman grabbed me a puke bucket and I obliged. I haven't throw up since 7th grade... until today.
I was so embarassed. The therapist sees it all the time and doesn't mind at all. It's still embarassing. She got me ginger ale and a 'preggo pop' to suck on. She said I'm in the prime time for morning sickness.
I called mom after the event and she drove me home. The car is still at St. Clair Hospital. I have to pick it up later. Thanks for the ride, mom. :)
The Beginning...
I thought starting a blog would be the best way to keep everyone updated on what’s going on with me. I love you all, but I get to a point where I don’t want to talk about this stuff anymore.
Here’s the newest update:
Neurologically Speaking – I had a spinal tap on Friday and it hurt. My back was sore and I laid down for 24 hours and was fine. After the initial 24 hours, I started back up to my normal routine and now I’m getting headaches. I don’t know if they’re ‘spinal headaches’ but it’s not fun. I do know that I feel better when I lay down but I hate being lazy.
I also got an echocardiogram on Saturday and it went fine. I still have to get some sort of ‘doppler’ on my neck to check my blood flow. I start occupational therapy today and I can’t wait
I won’t get any results until at least the 21st. I can’t even get an MRI for several weeks (which is frustrating but I understand… I have to be safe with a pregnancy).
Speaking of pregnancy – I’m still really early on. I have my first ultrasound next Monday. I don’t feel like anything’s going on down there. Then again, I’ve been dealing with all these neurological problems and I can’t tell what’s pregnancy and what’s ‘other’. I have been having wild dreams lately and I’ve been very hot overnight.
Well, typing is also now difficult for me and this is taking forever. I’m going to stop for now and try to relax before my o/t. Hopefully it will be easier for me to keep updates posted here.
Here’s the newest update:
Neurologically Speaking – I had a spinal tap on Friday and it hurt. My back was sore and I laid down for 24 hours and was fine. After the initial 24 hours, I started back up to my normal routine and now I’m getting headaches. I don’t know if they’re ‘spinal headaches’ but it’s not fun. I do know that I feel better when I lay down but I hate being lazy.
I also got an echocardiogram on Saturday and it went fine. I still have to get some sort of ‘doppler’ on my neck to check my blood flow. I start occupational therapy today and I can’t wait
I won’t get any results until at least the 21st. I can’t even get an MRI for several weeks (which is frustrating but I understand… I have to be safe with a pregnancy).
Speaking of pregnancy – I’m still really early on. I have my first ultrasound next Monday. I don’t feel like anything’s going on down there. Then again, I’ve been dealing with all these neurological problems and I can’t tell what’s pregnancy and what’s ‘other’. I have been having wild dreams lately and I’ve been very hot overnight.
Well, typing is also now difficult for me and this is taking forever. I’m going to stop for now and try to relax before my o/t. Hopefully it will be easier for me to keep updates posted here.
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